spectating participant

February 1, 2006

this is going to take effort…

Filed under: school, life — suzanne henderson @ 10:12 am

surviving this semester, I mean. I don’t know if it is the fact that I’m almost done, that I’m taking so many classes, or that most of them are on Tue/Thr, but I can tell that it is going to really push me this semester. Already, on the 3rd day of classes, I didn’t want to go — bad sign. Of course, I’ve been a little off kilter at home because of the whole kitchen thing. I can decide to just get over it, if I want, but I’m not sure that is where I’m at yet. I’m still not completely prepped for the semester. I still need to buy a few more book and I’ll head to campus to do that today. Plus, there is a book on reserve that I need to read for a class. It looks like each Wednesday, even though it is a ‘day off’, I will be heading to campus anyways. I don’t want to spend all my cash on buying books this semester, especially not when to buy them all would cost about $600. So, I’m taking advantage of a library copy of one and the fact that one professor put all his books on reserve. This also means that some books I’m just not going to buy, maybe I’ll see if I can borrow them from classmates or just get by without them. But one class has me reading only 100 pages of a book, come on, that isn’t worth the $30 that I have to pay for it. Of course, another class with 5 or 6 books, we’re reading a book a week. I really need to get started on those.

So, this is an intensive semester in terms of material, reading volume, and lack of drive. I can say that a few of my classes are interesting at least. No, I don’t have a real passion for what most of them are talking about, but I am amused enough to not feel like life is bleeding out of my skull throughout class. This makes sitting through the 1.5 or 3 hour classes much easier. But, I think I’ll start dragging a laptop along or at least some other reading material to make better use of my time.

Well, it is getting late and I’ve not showered and dressed yet. I better get moving if I want to make use of today. Plus, keep out of the house as much as possible, at least till Megan heads off to class this evening. Then I can get all the house cleaning (minus kitchen) done that I’ve been needing to do. Yeah, perhaps it is about time to get over the whole kitchen thing, but man it sure riles me up when I think about. Prolly why I’ve just avoided the house as much as possible so there is no chance for me to go smarting off about it, cause I’m sure I’d say way more than I should and prolly end up without a place to live in the process. Yes, I love them both very much and, though t may not sound like it at the moment, am very grateful for everything that have done and are doing for me and Alex (which is an great amount). But, I can’t let this go.