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November 27, 2003

something out there

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 10:30 pm

We went for a walk around the Pawhuska cemetery yesterday. I took pictures. I really like the images. Sepia is my favorite mono-toned photo options and the statues were spectacular models.

I got a rash on my head from this Tea Tree Oil product I bought to relive itching. It showed up yesterday, I’ve suffered through today, and tomorrow I can’t wait to get some benadryl and take a break from this torment. Washed my scalp again tonight and it already feels much better

We ate lots. The food was delicious too. I’m so happy to be around my family for Thanksgiving. My cousin Justin came up for dinner and it was great seeing him. Tried talking him into moving out to Maryland, and at least I know he’ll think about it.

Rob seems to really be enjoying his trip here. He had made lots of ham radio contacts, which seems pretty neat. Another plus for wanting to get my own license. Tomorrow we are going down to Oklahoma City and will see my sister Shanna. Yay!

November 25, 2003

back in oklahoma

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 8:17 pm

I’m learning a lot about Oklahoma on my trip back home. My mom keeps telling rob all sorts of interesting facts and tidbits about the area that I never knew. Today we went to [Woolaroc] where they had lots of neat animals and a museum to visit. We also stopped in [Bartlesville, OK] to do a little shopping and eating.

We stopped at a beauty supply shop so I could pick up some stuff for my new extensions, however, they didn’t have anything there. They had a few shevles for ethnic products, but nothing for extensions. I gave up and bought some tea tree oil stuff for my scalp. Perhaps when we go into Tulsa or Oklahoma City I can find a store with a little more variety.

For lunch, we ordered the 66 ounce steak dish. The sheer idea of order that item was impossible to resist. Sadly, it was 3 22-ounce steaks instead of one large one, but the taste certainly made up for it. Yummy. We’ll be snacking on it later.

Took a 5 generation picture this evening. Yay! Thats a lot of years in one photo.

Well, I guess thats about all. The trip is going well. Oh yeah, ask me about the oil pump sometime.

November 24, 2003

airport wonders

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 6:39 pm

So, Rob didn’t get any flack at the airport. Walked right through with no trouble at all while I had to wait for my laptop to pass the swab test. Yeah, mister paranoid he is.

Sitting in an airport bar now, sipping not so great (but could be worse) beer and paying for wireless. $3.00 it’s killed. :) Should have stayed at Burger King and paid nothing for wireless.

Rob and I are being all geeky, sitting with our laptops and beer. Alex has taken over a whole table with her new color book and color kit. Okay, I guess thats all… Now just waiting to get on the plane, la la la….

November 23, 2003

it’s all about the pigtails

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 10:42 pm

I got my hair done today. Bethany and Miriam from [Foxy Faux] got it done in just 4 hours. Two movies and a new head full of hair, not so bad for a Sunday morning and afternoon.

At first, I was freaking out over it. I knew the roots were going to look like this, but for some reason I’d convinced myself I wouldn’t mind and got the extensions anyways. So, when Steph was asking me how I liked it, I wanted to run and hide. But she and Dave were very encouraging and complimentative and I calmed down a bit. I love the length and the fullness of the hair, but the roots were feeling a little strange and a bit much.

Then, I found a mirror, twisted it up into pigtails, and viola, I fell in love. I’ve been playing with it a lot more this evening and thinking of some new things to do with it. Not sure what to do about it for work tomorrow. Not really in the mood to wrap it up and keep it covered, however, I also don’t want to get a lot of flack about it at work either. Oh well, I’ll decide that later. For now, I’ll keep working on getting over the fact that the roots/braids look strange (but with cool patters) and think up different hair styles to wear with it. Hmm, wonder what it would be like to put my red/black pony falls on.. it’d be a mega mass of hair.

Oh yeah, here is a picture, or two, or three.

November 21, 2003

archaic communication

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 6:21 pm

Today, I wrote a letter to a dear friend. I took out a piece of paper and pen and set down, by script, what I wanted to say. The pen felt awkward in my hands. My letters and words looked too crooked and chicken-scratch like.

Despite the discomfort, I forced my hand to write out the whole letter. A letter that took an entire page of handwritten emotions, a page that would have been only quarter or half a page had it been set out in a 12 point font. I cut it short because my hand started to cramp and my writing got worse and worse along the page.

I folded it up, placed it inside an envelope, wrote the address on the outside, placed a stamp in the upper right hand corner, and placed it in the mail box. There is sat until the postman came to pick it up. It feels strange knowing that this bit of correspondence is going to be delivered by hand, by truck, by plane, by non-digital means. In a few days, my friend will go to his mailbox, that is probably filled with bills and aol cd’s, and find this testament to the archaic way of communicating. And while my letter physically moves across the country, I’ll post this message and make it instantly available to everyone in the world.

Decom Costume

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 12:13 am

[Rob] is going to [NYC Decom] and I’m not. However, one of my costumes is:

Rob will be an electric cowboy!!

I can’t wait to see pictures and hear stories about the fantastic time everyone is going to have. Oh yeah, looks like Decom is sold out too.

electric blue furry chaps

Filed under: costumes — suzanne henderson @ 12:02 am

I finally made something! My honey needed a costume for NYC Decom. He was going to rent a cowboy costume, but the price and time to do that didn’t work out. So this evening, we went to the fabric store, bought 1.5 yards of electric blue fur and 1 yard of neon green felt.

November 19, 2003

When beer isnít enough anymoreÖ.

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 4:20 pm

Several months ago, I went through The Program. I went from cringing at the thought of drinking beer to happily ordering on tap beer at any bar I visited. It started with going to [The Brewerís Art] for [Tuesday night beer] a couple times a month. The dedicated beer patrons decided to introduce me to the tasty art of beer and seemed determined to get me to like it.

I started with candy beers: Lindemanís Kriek, Melbourn Strawberry, Berliner Kindl Weiss. After several weeks of religiously ordering these sweet beers, I decided it was time for something a little cheaper (Lindemanís were about $8 a bottle). [Rob Banz] convinced me to try the Samuel Smithís Oatmeal Stout, a tasty and rich dark beer. I liked it and soon started looking for other dark beers to try.

I then started drinking the Oatmeal Stout and Hitachino Nest White on Tuesday nights. Soon, my pocket book started complaining again and I decided to go with the house beer, Proletary. Now, Iím trying new beers every month, but mostly ordering something from the tap: Ozzy, Resurrection, and Cerbus Tripel.

Having completed The Program and even turning into a minor beer advocate, I found myself wanting something more last night. [Phil] has always been fond of port and I decided to look over the port menu to see if anything caught my eye. Having tried and knowing that I like port, I decided to look from something a little different. The Brandies and Cognacs caught my attention.

I asked [James|Worlds Greatest Bartender] for a few suggestions and ended up with the Cardenal Mendoza Brandy de Jerez(Spain). James handed me a large glass with what seems to be a very small amount of liquid in it. At first, I was certain that he had just offered me a taste since I wasnít sure what I wanted, but then he went on to something else and I realized this was all there was. I was annoyed; eight dollars for what looked like a sip, absurd.

I sat down with my glass and took a sniff. Whoa! It was strong. It took me multiple attempted sips before I actually tasted it. Once I got it in my mouth, it wasnít as bad as it smelled; not that it smelled gross, just strong. I was certain that was getting tipsy on the scent alone. It took me a long time to finish it and I think it was defiantly worth trying. In fact, I might add to my alcohol rotation. Of course, that one glass is almost equivalent to the three beers I typically have, so the price makes sense after all.

November 18, 2003

unhappy body

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 2:21 pm

I’m physically tired and cranky. I feel like I still haven’t been able to catch up from the Scoprfest party on Saturday. Funk’s house was rocking, the fire spinning was fun, and over all a great time. First time in a long time I stayed up to dawn. First time to not get out of bed till 2pm the next day. Even then it was a pretty slow moving afternoon.

Finally saw the new Matrix movie. I wasn’t impressed and I kept half falling asleep during it. Ended up missing free indian food at Sara and Dale’s place since I didn’t get back home in time, bummer. Prolly just as well, I was falling asleep on Dave’s couch while waiting for his Alex to get home so we could leave.

Monday I didn’t feel well, today I don’t feel well. I don’t know whats up with me. I really don’t want to go to class tonight, but I have to. I want to go home and see my family, but I have class. Sux0r. Less classes next semester, aww, but I have to be part time. How to do this, oh how to do this.

What I really want to do is going to school fulltime again. But I don’t want to quit working at BCCCRC. Sigh, how to do this, how to do this.

November 14, 2003

friday five

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 3:05 pm

1. Using one adjective, describe your current living space.
- frazzled

2. Using two adjectives, describe your current employer.
- respectful, serving

3. Using three adjectives, describe your favorite hobby/pasttime.
- stunning, spectacular, enticing

4. Using four adjectives, describe your typical day.
- energetic, rushed, circular, stretched

5. Using five adjectives, describe your ideal life.
- spontaneous, gleeful, spiritual, balanced, giving

November 12, 2003

happy body

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 1:49 pm

I’m really liking my new fitness center. I’ve gone 3 times, so yeah, I’m still in that honeymoon period. Yesterday I took a coworker with me who really enjoyed it, so maybe she’ll sign up and we can go together. Not sure I like getting so sweaty in the middle of the day, but if thats what I have to do to get a little exercise, then I’ll do it.

One disappointment is that the company they use to process their credit cards decided to reauthorize my payment. And since it’s on my visa check card, I’m now short the money out of my account until it gets take care of. Luckily, I think I’m okay on bills and it won’t cause any major problems. But it does bother me that this happened.

However, I think I’ll see if I can actually get a real credit card again. I seriously doubt I can, but I guess I can go ahead and try.

bad dream

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 9:08 am

The last dream of the night was very unsettling; it felt very real and inescapable. In it, Rob and I split up and for some reason I move in with his parents house. There is some mental confusion about if Rob moves out of the house or not. I seem to think that I own the house and have decided to sell it. While living with Rob’s parents, stuff starts to get strange. Some of my things are here and there and I get very self conscious of my computer habits. Finally, Rob’s mom decides to clean the whole house and that means getting me out of it. I then start wondering why Rob and I aren’t together and want to get ahold of him. I check his webpage from this ipod-like device and it is just a graphic image of war and death and lost hope. I get all upset and want to contact him somehow, buy my ipod-thing is broken and I can’t get anywhere. So I wake up trying to figure out how I could have let that happen and how to get ahold of rob, while Rob’s parents are fussing over access to the computer closet that my large red trunk is blocking.

The dream may not sound so bad, but the emotional context was awful. It took me about half an hour to finally shake off that feeling of dread.

November 11, 2003

snow white

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 6:37 pm

I was driving home last night, almost to Wentworth Road, when I noticed something in the middle of my lane. I pulled up slowly, assuming it was a cat, and was stunned — there was a large, snow white owl standing in the road. He looked at my stopped car for a moment, then went back to studying the shadows intently. He was massive and much larger than a cat (even a cat like Mallet) and seemed to think he was exactly where he needed to be.

After several minutes of watching him, I noticed car lights heading up the road and got frustrated that I couldn’t sit and watch him longer. I edged my car a little closer and he turned his large eyes towards me. He studied my car for a moment, then spread his massive wings and fly off through the yard on the left. I wanted to see where he went, but as soon as he was out of my headlights, his brilliant white feathers faded into the night.

November 10, 2003

on second thought…

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 4:01 pm

perhaps I spoke too soon last night and perhaps youth is wearing away. [Hackers] really isn’t all that good and I did actually cringe at the geek elements they try to put into it. Guess I’m geekier than I thought. However, even if the movie isn’t all that great, Angelina Jolie still is.

found out that I had the wrong dates about the Winter Solstice Celebration in Madison, WI. Seems their website was wrong. Bummer, I’ll end up having to miss it, I guess. :(

November 9, 2003

home again

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 10:21 pm

Watching [Hackers] right now. I love this movie and I’m not really sure why. The geek elements are totally lame, but then again, I’m not enough of a geek to care. The music is decent at least. But really, it’s all because of [Angelina Jolie] - meow! Same reason I recently watched [Foxfire] too.

Rob is upstairs watching [Cashing Amy], the gal in that movie is cute too.

November 7, 2003

posting from 287 in Jersey

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 9:47 pm

written in the car on the way to NJ - also posted from the car:

[taxi driver] - just another reason that owning guns is a fucked up thing to do. and a realization that Rob Banz is crazier than I thought.

what if you only saw the bad things in life, the low life of things, what will that do to you? what if you live in your head all the time, do nothing but think and talk to yourself, constantly watching the world, seeing things that people shouldn’t see day in and day out. yeah, I don’t think I could take that.

The movie was too violent for me, am I turning soft? When did I go from having [Natural Born Killers] as my favorite movie, to my stomach churning at the sight of blood or violence? Oh well.

I said it and I did it.

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 3:18 pm

Okay, the stuff I said I was going to do today, I did.

I’ve been talking with a fellar from [Flamma Aeterna Firedancing Equipment and Supplies] about some equipment. The emailed a day or two ago to promote their stuff, and I might go ahead and give them a try. I already ordered a lot of wick from [Renegade Juggling], but I might order the ballchain and some extra wick from these people. Anyone else ever heard of them or used them?

Other news: going to New Jersey tonight. Seems like we’ll be there all weekend, interesting. I’ll be working most of the time, the website for work is due on Monday and I’m sure most of you can guess how much I’ve gotten done so far….

November 6, 2003

Go PTA!!

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 9:27 pm

Went to a PTA Committee meeting tonight. I’m gonna be helping with Villa Cresta’s yearbook. This will be the first year they have opened it up to all grades (before it was just a memory book for 5th graders). I’m excited about it.

Tomorrow is friday and payday! I’m placing an order with [Renegade Juggling] for some wick material for some fire props. Also going to join a fitness program too. I’m tired of not exercising enough. I’ve been excited about this for over a week now and think that it’ll really do me some good. I’ll be going at least (and most weeks - at most) 3 times a week during my lunch break. It’s a thirty minute fitness program that I’ve heard lots of good stuff about.

Once I’ve been going for a while and really get into it (or not if that ends up being the case, though I doubt it), I’ll share a few more details about it.

Got in the [Friends School of Baltimore] packet today. I’ve been looking at this school for a while. One of my coworkers has a son that attends there. After being at [Milestones Programs for Children] so long, I’m not wowed by the public school system. This school would give me back a lot of that school commitment that I feel like we’ve lost since moving away from Wisconsin. Currently thinking that I’ll move Alex into the Friends School about 6th grade. Until then, I’ll get more involved in the school and make the most out of what public education has to offer.

November 4, 2003

are people really this negative?

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 10:21 am

I’m starting to wonder about the general public. I keep seeing instances of outright meanness and rudeness that is uncalled for or provoked. One of the New York burners moved off to Puerto Rico and started a journal about her experience with raw foods http://slate.msn.com/id/2090570/entry/0/ and then gets all of these responses http://fray.slate.msn.com/?id=3936&tp=diary. Sigh.

This just follows up my recent disappointment in a particular member on a Quaker list I’m on. The list was discussing Marilyn Pukkila who calls herself a ‘Quaker Witch’. Some members of the list were not sure what to think of this and other were somewhat supportive. I posted my response to which I receive a personal email from the man who began the conversation. I was quite disappointed to see that conversation went like this.

Sigh. I just don’t take well to this much negativity in things. Perhaps I get stuck in my Pollyanna phases, but damn it, can’t the world be a little nicer to each other every once in a while. If someone wants to talk about a new things they are doing for themselves (without preaching that others should be doing it) we should say “wow, thatís neat’ or if someone posts their opinions on a list (a Quaker one no less) that perhaps we should show some sort of compassion toward that person.

November 3, 2003

mmm lunch

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 12:29 pm

I brought one of those Uncle Ben’s Rice Bowls in for lunch. It’s not too bad. I didn’t check the nutritional content of it though; however, I need some cheeper lunch options and this fits the bill.

Mac Eye for the Windows Guy

November 2, 2003

sunday slump

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 3:51 pm

I feel like doing a million things and nothing at the same time. I want to work on some creative projects but don’t know where to start. I want to clean my room up, but don’t like working in the dim light. Maybe I’m just making excuses. Well at least I can say that I’ve got a pretty sharp headache all of a sudden and I won’t be doing much until it goes away.

November 1, 2003

Diva Costume

Filed under: costumes — suzanne henderson @ 10:26 pm

Yes, one more thing on my to-do list.

I love the Diva in the 5th Element. I’d love to make something just like that costume, but I have no clue where to begin. But at least I’ll start thinking about it now. Here is the site that I’m going to start with:


we’re going to oklahoma

Filed under: unlisted — suzanne henderson @ 11:13 am

Yep, this month for Thanksgiving, Rob, Alex, and I will be heading to Tulsa, OK. I haven’t been in the state for a while now and am looking forward to seeing family. Also, Rob has sold his soul and committed to flying somewhere again. I’m shocked and happy. It means we won’t be driving for 25 hours!

Halloween was pretty quite last night. Went around the block with Alex and the neighbors. I’m not sure how much candy she got in all since she decided to spend the night across the street. Guess I could have gone to the party in DC after all, but by the time I thought about it, I decided it wasn’t worth it.

I didn’t have much luck in the kitchen yesterday. In the afternoon I tried making a [Mango Lassi] with yogurt and mango juice. It tasted alright but wasn’t quite right. Then I tried making a black bean burrito dish and it wasn’t very impressive. After trick-or-treating, I bought some mangos at the store. Unfortunately, my second attempt at making a mango lassi failed.

So after little success in the kitchen, Rob and I went to [Mount Everest] and ordered samosas, rice pudding, and mango lassi. I asked the fellar how he makes them and I’ll be heading to the store this afternoon to buy the stuff and try again.