I'm still not happy about this dog thing. And after reading Rob's webpage, I'm even less happy about it. He still makes it seem like such a selfish decision to take the dog to the pound, that just because we don't want to be bothered with coming home after work to take care of her, we got rid of her. That’s not my reasoning.
I wasn't worried about having to come home and take care of the dog. I have a kid that needs much the same type of timely attention, so it's not a big change for me. My decision was to not have the dog in the house and the dog should not go back to my mother. I do not have the financial resources to get her a doghouse and feel that shock collars are cruel (both would be needed to keep from getting more animal cruelty complaints).
I still feel like I made the wrong choice. I think that I should have just allowed the dog to stay inside alex's room, dealt with whatever she chose to chew up, and possibly going to the bathroom on the floor. But what then? I don't know anyone who wants a dog. I guess I could wait till after payday and if the fee isn't too much, place an ad in the newspaper for a free dog. If nothing comes up, then what? I can't keep the dog. I have no compassion to keep an animal.
I don't know what I should have done or should do now. I almost want to go get the dog back and bring her back home, but then I'm back at square one. I feel that I'm being mean by making these choices. Of course, I don't see that letting my mother have the dog back is a great idea either. Biscuit needs a home where the people can take care of her better. We are not that home; I don't have the emotional capacity to care for a dog.
I don't know what to do about this. This is making me feel like an awful person.